things have to get worse before they get better and they cannot get any worse. So this I take will be as getting better, getting away from affecting all of you that I love. This is the only way. If not, I will perpetuate this forever, and forever be intertwined with my problems. I am removing the negative aspect of my self, for I hope I left one good thing here. I just can't see my problems and everything is like a brick wall that is too high to see over in all directions. I don't know how I'm gonna do this, I don't know how this will happen, but it will.